moved!

Tue, 06 Jan 2009 08:24:31 GMT

changed to oohsugarspice ! :D

One for the money and the free rides It's two for the lie that you denied -

Mon, 24 Nov 2008 05:36:32 GMT

screwed up totally, ugh. Flunked, for all, god.
I brood over the subjects named PSLE and RESULTS over and over again, wtf.
I cant get over the fact that it's over and there's nothing I can do to give things a twist of change, tsk.
sigh, science sucks man, fuckage, ugh.

anyway, still glad to have comfort from friends, yeah.
Though things were at its ultimate discharge of horror,
without those peers / seniors' hmmm, comfort ( again ) , would seriously just go totally emo and. . . whatever, don't know.

hmmm, submitted my six choices of school just, .
here goes :

St.Nicholas
Anderson
Methodist
National Junior College
River Valley
Cresent Girls' ( i don't know how to spell crescent/cresent, wtf )

yeaaaah, FOR THE UNEXPECTED, go boo boo, :'(

Baby, it hurts . Your love is all a lie - </3

Wed, 10 Sep 2008 10:13:23 GMT

Your love is all a lie -
For all you know, I have given up already.
I have washed my hands off you.
I have left you for good.

I'm seriously very tired.
The jealousy is wearing us both out.
It's arduous.

You know, I seriously think that we are both not at the right age to go about Love.
We are not in the right state of mind and mentality.
Perhaps, when we are older,
when our minds mature and we can go about things, will be the ripe time to get into a relationship.
For now, We have much more things to focus on and to achieve.

It's not that I don't love you.
A relationship can only be maintained when there's mutual respect, understanding, love and trust.
You say that I don't trust you.
Why, I would say the same about you.
If you trusted me, You wouldn't say those hurtful stuff.
Knowing how much I abhor flirts, you associate me being one.
Do you know how fucking that is?

I long knew we lacked understanding and trust.
I told you about it.
and everytime,
your plan to salvage is : " Give us some time to chill " .
But hello? no avail!
Shouldn't we work on something better?
no, we cant.

You get close with some girl and you expect me to treat it as I didn't see anything?
You expect me not to feel jealous?
No way, I can't do that.
However, I can do one thing -- Heck care.
Yes, I will.
But you know what?
I really wanna know why you aren't self-conscious.
oh wait.
You are.
But you don't give a bloody damn to my feelings.

You came to me and said : " are you jealous? "
hah -
Since you could ask me that question,
I suppose you knew how I felt.
and instead, you carried on.
what the hell .
That's seriously double the hurt.

I don't wanna restrict your friends,
I don't wanna restrict how you treat them.
Because different people have different ways of expressing how they feel towards that person.
and to add on,
different people live on difference principles and values.
Just like how I can't accept the fact of you getting close to someone I detest quite the least, I should say?

Getting back to the topic of you associating me with being a flirt,
no matter how close you and "her" get,
I never once said that you flirt.
As for you? you said it.
Do you really want things to come to an end?
You are bringing everything down!
However,
I must admit.
I am partly the problem too.
You are not at fault, okay. ( ... )
It lies with me, okay?

I just cant figure why,
after going through so much,
you still do things without thinking of the consequences.
Everything cannot be solved just by saying a simple " sorry " , you know.
Sorry is just a word.
It cannot be compared to the emotions stirred by your actions.

I try thinking about what I want.
You once told me that all you wanted was attention from me.
I gave you, didn't I?
But did you give me?
I safely say : " no " .
To each his own.
Also, you keep saying that Friends are more important than you.
But you know what, the feeling is neutral and mutual!
I don't wanna harp on this.

since you feel tired,
won't you just consider a better way to perhaps end all these hurt?
It's straining, and for all you know,
the year is coming to an end,
just like how everyone will be separated ultimately.
I seriously hope even if we end this,
there will be a happy ending that will remain etched in my memory forever.

To me, this is no good start.
The first relationship I had, coming to such an end, -.-"
( sorry, cannot help ranting ).

Even so, I think that you will meet your Miss Right one day.
I'm just not the one for you, yes?
Take care of yourself,
Letting go in the initial stage will be painful,
but bear with it.
We will get over it ( Although this sounds superficial, it's true ) .
There's no such thing as True Love at a age of 12.
Okay, there is. But rarely.
All the best to you towards realising your dreams and ambitions.

( I love you , I really do . But there comes a time when we have to let go . Everything shall be decided souly on your decision. We shall move on from there, sweetheart. Once again, I love you, I really do . )

Let e rain fall down, & wake my dreams , Let it wash away , my sanity , cos I wanna feel the thunder

Wed, 06 Aug 2008 10:56:25 GMT

Try not to get into relationships, people.
Seriously.
If you range from 12 - 16.
Try avoiding relationships.
They are complicated and tedious.
seriously, they are super duper tiring.
Firstly, I must admit that there's enjoyment at first.
But then,
you will slowly get tired and really " sian - " of all the upcoming problems.
Problems that are _____________ ( .... )
so yes. Of course,
there are exceptions.
There are still true love on Earth.
and Hence, this is just a negative post.
Take note. *
uhuh, so avoid, yes?
_________________________________________________________________

I swear, I wouldn't wanna get into a complicated relationship ever again ( not vowing, and jokingly swearing )
Let me just be a plain Lesbian heh heh.
Thank you very much for your time and attention, bye peeps.

bring on the rain, bring on the thunder

Sun, 03 Aug 2008 07:54:56 GMT

okay, so prelims are coming.
I am screwing up!
shitty shit shit.
I hate homework.
screw homework.
why do all teachers give us so much homework!
we cant cope. okay. or rather, I cant cope.
oh fuck.
bloody god damn homework, hate you, dang.
__________________________________________________________________________________

okay, I understand that this is so random and lame.   eer.
homework sucks.   why have things turned out like this!
in the past it was still manageable!
I even wanna start copying homework now.
wtf?
oh yes. I am geting too lazy. -.-"
okay, that explains it.
my attitude too!
subjectively irksome.    ef.

Until you posses the ability to give, I shall not grant you your binge

Sat, 26 Jul 2008 07:34:17 GMT

Heyooooooo!
going out with Linshan to Wisma Atria soon ^ ^ )
gee, so excited. :D
anyway, So stress leh. ):
dad's not back yet. and Linshan and I were supposed to meet at 4!
howhowhow. Time's gonna be up soon . EEEEKKKKKK!
Daddy, please come home soon.
[ Daddy, please read this ^^)   ]

ILOVEYOUMWAHMWAHMWAH :)            <3

I cut my hair!    ugly to the max, eff.    eeek . Don't tease and laugh okay. :)
I feel terrible enough. WAHAHAHAHAHAH.   ):
anyway, should be going anytime now, ciao~

with a broken wing, she carries her dreams, and you ought to see her fly

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 11:19:27 GMT

THANK YOU FOR BEING A HYPOCRITE.
THANK YOU FOR TEACHING ME TO BE MORE CAREFUL IN CHOOSING MY FRIENDS
THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME GROW STRONGER
THANK YOU FOR ALLOWING ME TO HAVE SUCH A PAINFUL EXPERIENCE
THANK YOU FOR PROVIDING A PHILOSOPHICAL LIFE LESSON
THANK YOU FOR HURTING ME
THANK YOU FOR TELLING ME THAT I WAS WRONG
THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME KNOW THAT I WAS A BITCH
THANK YOU FOR ADMITTING
THANK YOU FOR DENYING
THANK YOU FOR BEING AN ASSHOLE
THANK YOU FOR SAYING SORRY
THANK YOU FOR CONFESSING
THANK YOU FOR TALKING THINGS OUT
THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME A CHANCE TO EXPLAIN
THANK YOU FOR BEING MY FRIEND ONCE

THANK YOU

i'm sorry, you broke my heart, and now,
this all has to happen,
:'(
Thank you for the past, thank you.
For now, let's take time to chill and just ... step away.

open your window, let a little sunshine in, you will find that your room will be full of light!

Sun, 20 Jul 2008 02:07:36 GMT

yesterday's Nanyang Girls' DSA test was so DRAINING!

alas. so tired. and yet,   there's still SO MUCH HECKING HOMEWORK!
so many chinese oral recordings to be done! ):
I wonder, if teachers spared a thought for students. Considered their schedule or even, their time management.
anyway, It's really saddening, for me.
All my dsa's are flunked. ):   up next, rivervalley, woot woot.

at the end of the day, It's all so flushed up.   :(        moral decomplished , damaged.     HAH.
who cares anyway, right?       LOL.
ehs, all posted in Blogger, Don't know what to post here again,   hah.
never mind, just randomly talk about stuff. :D ,     or rather,   shit.         :)

Exams are nearing! ( prelim )
recalling about 2 months ago, life was also hectic. ):
However, I didn't study hard .   zz.   ):

so yes, I have to strive and chioooonngg!
prelims are really really important for now, tsk.
study hard, yeah? Subject math, absolute suckage, ugh.
As for the others, needless to say for science.
hmmm, languages, english and chinese, sigh, not much hope though, :(
____________________________________________________________________________________________________________

I'm super duper excited about next saturday! Going to Bugis Junction with Linshan!   ^ ^
we are gonna work on Social Studies and at the same time, go to starbucks, DIVA and shop!     mostly, relax (?) :) okay, this is such a sickening post, ta-ta .

DSA to NANYANG APPROACHIN-G

Wed, 16 Jul 2008 13:22:43 GMT

god,
The DSA admission test to Nanyang Girls' High is approaching!
shit shit shit, just shit, lol.
oo emm geee.

Tomorrow, Denise and Linshan are going to Nanyang for the DSA volleyball test.
To them : JIAYOU! ALL THE BEST! YOU GUYS CAN MAKE IT!    :)

whereas for me ?   ):
no nope, ugh.
My academic is not good.    bleh   ><
why on earth did I even think of dsa-ing there anyway!     GOSH.
keep my fingers crossed yea?   :O         (hopelesss anywayz)why does Saturday seem   soo near.    Like it's just.         ONE DAMN MINUTE AWAY. !

1) study hard. 2) work hard. 3) aim for the highest. 4) wish for the better.           } I guess that's all I can do currently.   =.=
although It's highly possible that I will not do options 1. and 2.    HAHAH.                o.o
oh whateverz.   NUS is the same anyway.      This will not be another exception.
It would be a miracle if it was.                                                   HAH.
toddles~

Love is -

Sun, 13 Jul 2008 03:39:14 GMT

Robert G. Ingersoll :

Love is the only bow on life's dark cloud.
It is the Morning and the Evening Star.
It shines upon the cradle of the babe,
and sheds its radiance upon the quiet tomb.
It is the mother of Art,
inspirer of poet, patriot, and philosopher.
It is the air and light of every heart, builder of every home,
kindler of every fire on every hearth.
It was the first to dream of immortality.
It fills the world with melody,
for Music is the voice of Love.
Love is the magician, the enchanter,
that changes worthless things to joy,
and makes right royal kings and queens of common clay.
It is the perfume of the wondrous flower -- the heart
and without that sacred passion, that divine swoon,
we are less than beasts;
but with it, earth is heaven
and we are gods.

Love is -

gappin-g

Sat, 12 Jul 2008 15:12:14 GMT

gappin-g
widenin-g

oh yes. that's it.

driftin-g

we were supposed to solve the problem..However, it has been to no avail. oh shiz..   ):
never mind. it's okay.
no effort has been made. or rather, maybe it has. but alas. I just don't see it.   anyway.
just try your best.
forfeit my remarks. If i have made any towards you.
promise me okay? please.

everytime I try to salvage things. I just get this irksome feeling. ):   I do not want this. But it's just automatic. ):
I'm sorry to feel this way. It's just that. ....
Never mind.
Hope you will take good care of yourself.
Others can wait.

toodles.   ~

stuble on a question , think hard. is there a solution -

Sat, 12 Jul 2008 08:55:19 GMT

oh shiz.

I have absolutely NO mood to do anything. ):

don't feel like going out, or whatever sort.

hah. all because of stupid nus .             :(

sometimes i wonder,is it really worth it if you worked really hard yet you gain nothing?
what does ~~YOU REAP WHAT YOU SOW~~ mean.       heck.            -.-

today's Joshua's birthday party. :D hope they enjoy themselves.
oh shiz. I didn't go for golf practise today.    ):  ( gosh.   I could have gone to Josh's party. JUST PERFECT. HAH. )
~~(simply avoiding. )but hey. i guess this cant go on~~ forever. ):i have to solve it once and for all. ):
shizz.

stuble on a question.
think hard.
is there a solution
oh yes there is.
every problem has one.
it just depends on how you want to solve it.
look ahead. never turn back.
yet, do not simply runaway
face up to it boldly

easy it seems. hard to carry out.

currently talking to Ashely through the phone.            :)
and listening to music.                                             ;D

alas. once again, pounces back to RESTLESS-NESS. ):
so yep.                      bye.

S.O.S

Fri, 11 Jul 2008 10:45:54 GMT

ILOVEYOULOADDZ. (:

TAKECARE! :D

SIMPLE S.O.S

ISIMPLYLOVEYOUMORETHANYOUCANTHINKANDDESCRIBE.
i doubt anyone knows what I'm talking and crapping about.
hahas. whatever so random :D

S.O.S. - Jonas Brothers

ILOVEYOUSOS.ILOVEYOU.